89.9 kg
I'm into the 80's!!!!
Doing the happy dance and hoping I can keep it off and maybe even improve by next weigh in :)
About Me
- Sara
- I think too much. And this is where those thoughts usually end up. I'm about to become a mum for the first time, and have therefore put my dieting goals on hold for the time being. I'm also currently freelancing and wondering what I want to do with the rest of my life...
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Back to the eighties (whoop!)
It's unofficial and all, and I know I'm not supposed to weigh myself every day, but this morning I stepped on the scales, and there it was...
I'm into the 80's!!!!
Doing the happy dance and hoping I can keep it off and maybe even improve by next weigh in :)
I'm into the 80's!!!!
Doing the happy dance and hoping I can keep it off and maybe even improve by next weigh in :)
Everything I shouldn't have eaten today but did...
It's been a very long time since I've had a day like today. I was helping a friend move into her new apartment, and she made spaghetti for lunch and got delivery pizza for dinner. The only thing I can hope is that all the lifting and carrying and running up and down stairs used up some calories, because I am going to need all the help I can get to counter the damage:
Breakfast (3.5 pts):
2 Weetabix + semi-skimmed milk
Snack (4 pts):
1 Balisto
1 Prince biscuit
Lunch (12.5 pts):
1/4 bag Doritos nacho cheese
Spaghetti bolognaise
Grated cheese
Dinner (18.5 pts):
1 Pizza Hut garlic bread
3 slices ham & mushroom Italian pizza
2 glasses red wine
And to top things off, the 3 large glasses of Pepsi Max I had may have actually been regular Pepsi.
I feel slightly sick. Ugh.
I have no hopes whatsoever for weigh in this week. I fully expect a gain and am really diappointed.
Breakfast (3.5 pts):
2 Weetabix + semi-skimmed milk
Snack (4 pts):
1 Balisto
1 Prince biscuit
Lunch (12.5 pts):
1/4 bag Doritos nacho cheese
Spaghetti bolognaise
Grated cheese
Dinner (18.5 pts):
1 Pizza Hut garlic bread
3 slices ham & mushroom Italian pizza
2 glasses red wine
And to top things off, the 3 large glasses of Pepsi Max I had may have actually been regular Pepsi.
I feel slightly sick. Ugh.
I have no hopes whatsoever for weigh in this week. I fully expect a gain and am really diappointed.
What the... ?
Weird and wonderful things are happening to me right now and I can't really make sense of them...
Tonight I arrived half an hour early for a dinner out with 4 friends. I sat in the restaurant (Thai) and ordered a cup of jasmine tea while I waited. The waiter brought the usual complimentary basket of prawn crackers to the table and I felt a sense of dread... surely the basket would never survive the 30 minute wait? And if by any miracle it did, I would undoubtedly spend each and every second of those 30 minutes obsessing over the crackers, eyeing them, salivating over them and feeling utterly deprived?
40 minutes later, the first friend arrived, and I realised the basket was still there, still intact except for one cracker I had eaten 20 minutes before and I had completely forgotten about it!
Then as the other friends arrived, someone ordered a bottle of wine and poured us all a glass. Usually that's my cue to down the glass in 2 minutes tops and proceed to finish off the bottle. It is impossible for me to make a glass of wine last for a whole meal. I drink compulsively. Yet, even after waiting 20 minutes to be served, it was still there and I took my last sip as I ate my final bite, leaving several pieces of meat on the plate - and I didn't even have any rice!
All this is so absolutely unusual - scrap that, unheard of, that I have been feeling puzzled by it all evening.
I really have stopped fighting myself! Food is no longer the enemy! I just feel so strange, like a part of me I've been living with for years just up and went. And I didn't even realise it had gone until this very moment. But it has gone, and has been gone since before I even started WW almost 5 weeks ago.
I can vividly remember how obsessed I could feel in the presence - or even in the absence - of food. I remember the panicky feeling at not being allowed to stuff everything into my mouth there and then, the sweaty palms as I wondered if I'd waited a decent amount of time before reaching out for another crisp, the constant image of food overpowering any other thought in my mind... and no matter how hard I try, I can't bring that feeling back. And no, I don't want it back! Not ever! But it's so hard to believe it's actually gone, and not just hiding around a corner, waiting to jump out at me and overpower me once again.
Damn, I hope it's gone forever.
Tonight I arrived half an hour early for a dinner out with 4 friends. I sat in the restaurant (Thai) and ordered a cup of jasmine tea while I waited. The waiter brought the usual complimentary basket of prawn crackers to the table and I felt a sense of dread... surely the basket would never survive the 30 minute wait? And if by any miracle it did, I would undoubtedly spend each and every second of those 30 minutes obsessing over the crackers, eyeing them, salivating over them and feeling utterly deprived?
40 minutes later, the first friend arrived, and I realised the basket was still there, still intact except for one cracker I had eaten 20 minutes before and I had completely forgotten about it!
Then as the other friends arrived, someone ordered a bottle of wine and poured us all a glass. Usually that's my cue to down the glass in 2 minutes tops and proceed to finish off the bottle. It is impossible for me to make a glass of wine last for a whole meal. I drink compulsively. Yet, even after waiting 20 minutes to be served, it was still there and I took my last sip as I ate my final bite, leaving several pieces of meat on the plate - and I didn't even have any rice!
All this is so absolutely unusual - scrap that, unheard of, that I have been feeling puzzled by it all evening.
I really have stopped fighting myself! Food is no longer the enemy! I just feel so strange, like a part of me I've been living with for years just up and went. And I didn't even realise it had gone until this very moment. But it has gone, and has been gone since before I even started WW almost 5 weeks ago.
I can vividly remember how obsessed I could feel in the presence - or even in the absence - of food. I remember the panicky feeling at not being allowed to stuff everything into my mouth there and then, the sweaty palms as I wondered if I'd waited a decent amount of time before reaching out for another crisp, the constant image of food overpowering any other thought in my mind... and no matter how hard I try, I can't bring that feeling back. And no, I don't want it back! Not ever! But it's so hard to believe it's actually gone, and not just hiding around a corner, waiting to jump out at me and overpower me once again.
Damn, I hope it's gone forever.
Blood test results are back!!
And the good, no, the GREAT news is that I don't have diabetes (blood sugar 0.89 g/l, so not even pre-diabetic).
Equally good news is that my cholesterol is under the recommended limit (total cholesterol 1.6 g/l, well under the 2.4 limit), although I should up my "good" cholesterol a little.
I'm waiting for the doctor to call me with his interpretation of all the other results, but these two things to me are such good news!
I would have been so, so angry at myself if the results had been bad. I know I'm finally doing what I should have done all along, losing the weight and eating more healthily, but I had imagined the worst about the damage I may have already done to my health.
I'm pretty sure these good results have something to do with the huge amounts of garlic I consume, lol!
Well, just to say, it's a big relief and it has motivated me even more to take care of my body properly from now on.
Equally good news is that my cholesterol is under the recommended limit (total cholesterol 1.6 g/l, well under the 2.4 limit), although I should up my "good" cholesterol a little.
I'm waiting for the doctor to call me with his interpretation of all the other results, but these two things to me are such good news!
I would have been so, so angry at myself if the results had been bad. I know I'm finally doing what I should have done all along, losing the weight and eating more healthily, but I had imagined the worst about the damage I may have already done to my health.
I'm pretty sure these good results have something to do with the huge amounts of garlic I consume, lol!
Well, just to say, it's a big relief and it has motivated me even more to take care of my body properly from now on.
And then there's the stuff life throws your way
Like a rat let loose on your million-piece domino set, or a gust of wind just when you'd finished sorting through and classifying hundreds of papers...
Divorce, death, infidelity have all come along and upset the fragile order of things in my life. I guess it's life's way of reminding you you can't control everything.
Nothing as dramatic this time. Just a little bit of bad news: my latest pap test came back positive for abnormal cells, so I'll be getting a biopsy next week. I already know I have the HPV strain that causes cervical cancer, so no surprise there. And it's usually a simple and effective procedure to remove the unwanted cells. So I'm not really expecting any huge disruptions. Just a reminder...
Divorce, death, infidelity have all come along and upset the fragile order of things in my life. I guess it's life's way of reminding you you can't control everything.
Nothing as dramatic this time. Just a little bit of bad news: my latest pap test came back positive for abnormal cells, so I'll be getting a biopsy next week. I already know I have the HPV strain that causes cervical cancer, so no surprise there. And it's usually a simple and effective procedure to remove the unwanted cells. So I'm not really expecting any huge disruptions. Just a reminder...