Week 25, 26, 27 WI (this is getting ridiculous :p)

I am beginning to doubt the usefulness of updating this blog with my weight-loss efforts when there isn't actually any weight loss happening...

The good news though is that over the past 3 weeks I have crawled back down to where I was 5 weeks ago, cancelling back out all but 0.1 kg of last post's gain.

The results so far are therefore:
Total loss: -11.7 kg / -25.8 lbs

In the meantime, it has not been a straight road from A to B. I have seen the scales change by over 2.5 kg from one morning to the next, then go back down slowly over the course of the next 3 days or so. This has happened at least 4 times over the past 3 weeks. So, I guess I should start seeing a pattern there and take a closer look at what it is I eat differently on the days my weight goes up. So, I've done just that and, invariably, the answer is: alcohol. One glass of wine can put me up 1 kg! Of course, I chalk it down to water retention, but it's still a little bit over the top and I'm wondering if I don't have some kind of allergy to alcohol.

I know, I know, it should be so easy to just not touch the damn stuff. (and I'll just leave it at that, no "but")

Aside from that, I have not been sticking to points like I should, which is obviously not helping either. I go about 20 points over per week, which is really only 3 a day, or the equivalent of 210 kcal, so I should still be getting a small loss with that, mathematically speaking. Or maybe I'm just kidding myself and you really do have to stick to the magic Weight Watchers formula for it to work (in other words: half the effort does not mean half the loss...).

This week (week 28) is in the same trend, I'm 16 points over by now and weigh in is on Monday.

So, what am I going to do about it, really?

At the risk of sounding completely pathetic, lazy and utterly devoid of willpower, I'm going to say: not as much as I should. OK, I will stay away from alcohol; OK, I will try harder to stick to points, I will go and buy more WW deserts and yoghurts for when I want something sweet, I will buy more fruit and vegetables, I will choose potatoes over pasta or rice as often as humanly possible and OK, I will get off my ass more often and go out for a walk. But I have to face facts and accept that I am not / will not put more effort than that into it right now. And stop expecting that at this rate I will be a size 12 by Christmas.

I really hope I will regain my "WW mojo" soon and get serious about it and have another good series of losses and be another 2 stone down by the end of the year, but right now it's obvious I don't feel compelled to do it.

Truth is, I already feel a whole lot better about myself and about what I see when I look in the mirror. I can fit into some of my old clothes again - another couple of kg and I'll be able to fit into a whole lot more of them - and I can look at pictures of myself and not feel disgusted. So maybe this is a place I feel comfortable at for now. I'll call it "practice maintenance" and any loss will be a bonus. Maybe taking the pressure off will do me good. It took me several years to put this weight on, I can deal with it taking a little longer to come off. For now.